This makes me sad but I've come to understand the need for the period of rest nature takes every winter. I've been having my own period of rest.
Demon Arm Twister
Back to that period of rest.
I've been sort of down and out about my condition at times. I've spent a lot of time sitting in quiet contemplation mostly in my garden until a couple days ago. Brrr...
When you slow down and be still for a time, you begin to listen to things more carefully. The chirping birds and the wind in the trees will speak if you listen to them. So will your heart.
Mine had been talking to me for some time. Not in the immediate, in-your-face way that a heart attack speaks but in the gentle, listen-to-me way that a patient friend will use when they are trying to tell you something important and maybe difficult.
What my heart was telling me is this: "Yer not getting any younger, sweetie."
Things that I once did without a second thought had become at best difficult and at worst impossible. Like mowing the yard or carrying in the groceries from the car or reaching into the backseat of said car for a tissue.
It makes you think. It made me think anyway.
So, I used this respite to think and come to some decisions about my life. Yeah, yeah, the retirement thing is still on and I love where I live and my garden and all the things that go with it. But I came up with a list of things that I think we all can relate to and benefit from. I'm sure your Mom told you all these things at one time or another. I think we could all use a reminder so I'm going to tell you again:
- Sleep more. As a nation, we are sleep deprived. My plan is for 7 hours a night.
- Exercise more. As a nation, we are getting fatter and more unhealthy. My therapist has sparked a renewed interest in weight training and I plan to pursue that interest with enthusiasm.
- Laugh more. Life is already so serious! And worrying about it doesn't make it better or go away. So laugh already. Enjoy life!
- Love more. How can that be bad? I'm not talking about sex. I'm talking about love. Love more beginning with yourself. I get that now. It's kind of a trite but true saying: You can't really love anyone or anything without first loving yourself. So get on with it already! Treat yourself with the same sort of care you would lavish upon someone you really love.